LYNNABEL's CalorieKing blog
Tuesday, Sep 15 2015
View LYNNABEL's food & exercise for this day
Food (yesterday): Good ate planned stuff.
Exercise: (this a.m.): None. Not good. I have a goal of at least 4 mornings a week and since I have class late on Thursday night, I usually discount Friday a.m. This week I will have to make it up.
Sleep: (last night): Good. Solid 7 hours.
Work (today): Okay. Small frustrations. I present to a large group this p.m. always makes me a bit nervous but it should be okay as Ive done the content before.
The rest of Life: Had a very difficult time this weekend shopping for the dress for my sisters wedding. I was APPALLED at the photos of me that my friend took of the dresses I tried on. I wont repeat my thoughts because they were so self critical. I have a weird version of body dysmorphia (or whatever its called) - when I see myself in person in the mirror I look okay to myself. When I see myself in pictures, I almost always HATE the way I look. I cant figure out why I wonder if it is the angle at which I see myself in a mirror? Truly dont get it, but its a night and day difference to me.
I had another friend assure me that the pictures were bad, but not reflective of the real me. I want to believe her. I know I am not photogenic, but this felt truly horrendously extreme. I have to lose at least a few pounds before Thanksgiving to feel comfortable in my own skin. Ill also have to just accept in advance that Im going to hate the way I look in the wedding pics. I chose a dress. Stephie liked it. It was the most comfortable of the ones I tried on (the fabric had a lot of give, and my shoulders werent restricted. It covered my armpit fat. Id post a pic, but that seems impossible on CK. Here is the link: http://www.davidsbridal.com/Product_sleeveless-short-mesh-dress-with-side-cascade-f15612-f15612-19632--1_bridesmaid-dresses-short-bridesmaid-dresses (plum color). I look NOTHING like the model, but it is a pretty dress.
Exercise: (this a.m.): None. Not good. I have a goal of at least 4 mornings a week and since I have class late on Thursday night, I usually discount Friday a.m. This week I will have to make it up.
Sleep: (last night): Good. Solid 7 hours.
Work (today): Okay. Small frustrations. I present to a large group this p.m. always makes me a bit nervous but it should be okay as Ive done the content before.
The rest of Life: Had a very difficult time this weekend shopping for the dress for my sisters wedding. I was APPALLED at the photos of me that my friend took of the dresses I tried on. I wont repeat my thoughts because they were so self critical. I have a weird version of body dysmorphia (or whatever its called) - when I see myself in person in the mirror I look okay to myself. When I see myself in pictures, I almost always HATE the way I look. I cant figure out why I wonder if it is the angle at which I see myself in a mirror? Truly dont get it, but its a night and day difference to me.
I had another friend assure me that the pictures were bad, but not reflective of the real me. I want to believe her. I know I am not photogenic, but this felt truly horrendously extreme. I have to lose at least a few pounds before Thanksgiving to feel comfortable in my own skin. Ill also have to just accept in advance that Im going to hate the way I look in the wedding pics. I chose a dress. Stephie liked it. It was the most comfortable of the ones I tried on (the fabric had a lot of give, and my shoulders werent restricted. It covered my armpit fat. Id post a pic, but that seems impossible on CK. Here is the link: http://www.davidsbridal.com/Product_sleeveless-short-mesh-dress-with-side-cascade-f15612-f15612-19632--1_bridesmaid-dresses-short-bridesmaid-dresses (plum color). I look NOTHING like the model, but it is a pretty dress.
3 comments so far.
3.
a decade ago
You are beautiful Lynn. You will look amazing.
:queen:
:thumbu2:
I think the dress is perfect.
Interesting fact about portrait photographers Connie.
by PATTIXOXO
2.
a decade ago
Beautiful dress, and I love it in the plum (though it took me a minute to find "plum" in the barrage of color choices). It will look great on you.
I have that type of body dysmorphia too, where I think I look OK in the mirror but feel appalled by the photos. G explained to me recently that some of it really is the photo because almost every phone (which I assume is what your friend used to take photos) has a wide-angle lens. This came up because I was telling him my face doesn't look as round to me as it does in photos, and he said, "That's because it isn't." Which is why portrait photographers pull back to a distance and then zoom in.
by CLOE
1.
a decade ago
"Armpit fat" she says. If only it were my armpits that were the only thing fat on me...
:kiss:
by JAY