I can't seem to get my act together foodwise. I have been doing okay with exercise. Not great, but okay (2-3 times per week). I just can't seem to reign in my eating, though. I know it has to do with this weird schedule and juggling bar study with work, life, etc. but that doesn't account for it completely since I was able (at times) to manage my eating during law school. I just can't figure out what to do to keep myself from indulging. For example, we went out to eat tonight which we do very rarely. I had planned ahead about what to order (that has worked for me in the past). But I got there and instead chose something else (carby and fried and cheesy). I'm too scared to get on the scale. I'm not used to not knowing what to do with myself. I would even say f-it until after the bar but I'm scared to since I'm not getting any younger and I know my metabolism is slowing down. Any weight I gain will be that much harder to take off. I also know that eating well will make me feel better in general which is what I need during this study period and the bar. I did just get back from a work trip to CA that I was worried about. Now that that isn't looming, maybe I refocus. I know I deserve to make myself a priority with healthy habits. Its like I can't find the switch, though.