LYNNABEL's CalorieKing Blog
Saturday, December 4th 2004
I weighed myself this morning. And I was up 7 pounds from my last weigh in which was 2 weeks ago.I eliminated as many sources of error as I could:
1. Its not the scale because my husband weighs the same as he did 2 weeks ago.
2. I don't have my period so its not TOM weight.
3. There is a remote possibility that it I read the scale wrong 2 weeks ago - that I read 130 instead of 135, but I don't think so.
4. This is a tiny possibility that Im retaining some water fr...
Thursday, December 2nd 2004
I just had a thought or series of thoughts I get angry at stupid people. (And that means my definition of stupid which may or may not be valid.) I get angry and irritated at them and then I end up showing it. But what good does that do? What I am trying to accomplish by showing my irritation? that I am superior to you, stupid person? that I am worried that I am not superior to you? that You should realize and apology for your stupidity, stupid person?(I think what I mean by stupid is in...
Wednesday, December 1st 2004
Another David Burns exercise I tried from this morning.Step One/Event: Seeing myself in the elevator mirror.
Step Two/Describe and Rank Feelings:
Discouragement 60
Disgust 60
Self-Dislike 60
Step Three: Triple Column
Automatic Thought
1. I am fat.
2. I am unattractive.
3. I am without worth because of my hips.
4. I should love myself more.
Distortions
1. Overgeneralization
2. Mind-reading
3. Personalization
4. Should Stat...
Monday, November 29th 2004
Steve and I went to the Unitarian Church up on Summit yesterday and it was a wonderful service. I felt as if I had come home. The service itself as well as the sermon where phenomenal - perfect - open and compassionate but deep and probing. The sermon was Bowing to Brokenness and I was just in 7th heaven listening to it. It was insightful and resonated with me so deeply. The minister spoke about the despair that comes when you feel like there just isnt enough you can do to help the world -...Wednesday, November 24th 2004
I'm really looking forward to the long weekend. S, the puppy, the kitties, and time off! How wonderful.We just had a group/department lunch from the Olive Garden. I ate too much, but it was sooo good. Its nice to have my big meal be in the middle of the day instead of at the end like usual. I'll eat light tonight and will be in my calorie range.
We've had a casual/haphazard sort of day here. I'm moving cubes which is wonderful since right now I'm on a corner that in the middle of all ...