LYNNABEL's CalorieKing Blog
Thursday, May 20th 2004
Wow - off to Memphis tomorrow - I'm excited. I have heard from A and M that neither will be able to be there, which is disapointing, but I am looking forward to seeing MS. I went shopping this week and got some great outfits - only bottoms, though, since there's no point in getting new shirts with the breast reduction surgery coming. I posted at CK about the size 6's, which is just SO MUCH FUN, but I even had a fluke 4 in there - a skirt. I'm sure it is a fluke, but a fun one, nonetheless....
Tuesday, May 18th 2004
I am so restless today am having a very hard time buckling down at work. There isnt a whole lot to be done today, so I should be catching up with the ongoing to do list. I just cant focus this morning. I remember a biology teacher in 9th grade who told me that busy people get stuff done. His point was that people who are busier often get more done than those who arent because they have to manage their time better. Perhaps that is the case here. I remember being unimpressed with that bio...Saturday, May 15th 2004
I spent nearly 4 hours today working on the yard. It was rough going at first - the tasks seemed just too big and I was sure that S and I would get a tiff about how to proceed. I don't know how to handle our differences sometimes. I'd elaborate, but my thoughts go in circles on this, so I'm not getting anyway. It bothers me that he speaks about the house as being my house sometimes - I think I can understand him doing that - its probably a mark of respect for the fact that I do actually own the ...Thursday, May 13th 2004
I just lost this whole entry - I had written quite a bit and it was helpful. I hate that I lost it. How frustrating.What I was writing about was anger. My anger. Where it might come from and what to do about group situations such as Im encountering at the conference, and what to do about it. Im too frustrated to recreate what I wrote.
I watched myself very closely today to identify when I could what bothered me so much about group situations. It is two fold, I think. I think part ...
Wednesday, May 12th 2004
I may add to this later on if I have time and emotional energy.I just spent an 45 minutes or so telling S about nearly everything I've been thinking and journaling about lately relating to work and self imagine. I spent the day today at the conference and found it very difficult - I experienced that I call panic attacks (they don't quite have the highened anxiety as much as profound discomfort and depression), and it was due in part to wirling thoughts about career and observations of the ...